A Distance, So Close

I don't expect you to care about my everyday life
or even the days that turn into bad nights.
But when my heart hits the floor and I'm hurting so bad
I hope that you'll reach out and help me at last.

I'm hanging on tightly but I think it's no hope.
My heart needed something but you never did hold.
I cry in this moment for more than one soul.
For more than one purpose, now you add to my whoa

I'm not quite the person you'd likely to hold
because of a rough time, I'm often so bold.
But lately that's different with a melted heart of stone.
It's breaking to pieces but not breaking in whole

The shell to protect me is broken once more
and I'm letting in feelings I fought long ago.
I guess what you're hearing is my muffled fight against weak.
But I'm down to my nothing and I feel oh so meek.

So maybe just one day you'll see what I need.
and maybe that one day the sign you will heed.
But for now I'm still waiting for someone to know
I'm breaking in pieces and need an arm here to hold.

To cry tears of anger, distrust, disbelief,
Broken and weary and I fall to my knees.
You'll sit there beside me as I let it all out
and know that your distance is my comfort for now.

Just Forget

Please don't remember me....
The way I talk smile smell taste,
laugh listen shine or ate.
Forget all the memories the old and the new.
 Keep none among us I'm ready, it's through.
 Let go the pieces the parts and the times.
You know it's the reason we fall every time.
Don't look back then wonder where I am now.
It's far for the better the way we turned out.
Well now that I've said it you're remembering us now
the joy and the laughter and how it turned sour.
We lost our affection that grew up so near
and reached a disaster that ended as feared.
We stopped all our trying to make things work... how?
It's not all that simple but it's simple no doubt.
So each to his memories that each we have known.
But please don't remember me, trust me: just don't.

Nowhere to Land

I'm tryna fly with nowhere to land
you say you're there but so does every man
it's hard to tell from so far away
if it's time to leave, or time to stay.

you got me hooked that's a truth
but after that I know no news.
I'm tryna fly with nowhere to land
like drinking water filled with sand.

it's hard to see where things stand
I'm tryna fly with nowhere to land
if it's not one thing, the next is new
but where's the fun when i'm one among a few

I'm trnya fly with nowhere to land
it's hard to sit where I need to stand
tell my gently or use a firm hand
I need to know where things are again

things fall slowly and run light again
tearing me slowly like an unseen hand
I hold on tight and trust one the man
cause I'm tryna fly with nowhere to land

He's There

When things are rough or you feel out of place

just close your eyes and ask God for grace.

To know it's all for a bigger plan,

whether you'll find out now or in the end.

But remember that too you can find peace in Him,

when you're falling down he'll help you rise again.

When your eyes are weary ask for rest,

even with all the chores He knows it's for your best

Time restrains and holds us down

because it's been so long it's been around.

Master your time don't let it master you

if that's the case it may become you too.

Today's a blessing no matter how hard

because there's a God who knows who you are.

When you feel no one's listening just open up right then and there

cause your father's a-list'ning and he's standing right there.

Scream out your anger, your brokenness and fear

until you've lost all you luster and you've cried every tear

He knew you before your bones ever formed,

there's nothing to hide because he's seen you before.

The maker of your heart is always prepared

to mend up what's broken if you ask for it there.

It's simply a matter of humbling yourself,

knowing you're broken and feel you deserve no one else

He knows what you're thinking that you're no good, but that's so not true.

He made you with laughter with joy, love, and peace.

You're meant to be holy if you seek Him indeed.

He wants you to acknowledge you know he's right there.

That you know you're fragile and you want dada there.

So shake off the glitter you applied long ago

to make things look better to those you don't know.

Remove all the gold, the sparkle, the shine.

It's not what he's wanting, he's looking inside.

He knows when you're hurting and awaits to confide,

but you have to let him, trust me: He's there.